A New Norm

The recent cancer diagnosis for my sister has finally began to sink-in.  No longer to I find myself wanting to run away from everything.  It’s a nice feeling.

I remember a couple days after I got home from Arizona having a cry fest in the family room with my parents.  Sobbing I asked, “When will this become normal?  When will this no longer seem so overwhelming? When will we be able to sit and have a conversation without tears?

In fact, just last week I had a really low moment.  I had just had a huge fight with my parents and Kelly, was overwhelmed and honestly just done with everything.  I don’t think I’ve ever been that low before in my life.  I actually went as far as tweeting (and texting my poor friends!) Don’t think anyone would care if I was gone.

Can you say deep depression?!

At the time, it seemed like the possibility of life ever being normal again would never happen. 

To be honest, we’re not back to normal.  Most likely we never will be the Benson family we were just one month ago.  However, we’re healing, beginning to move on and learning how to get on with life again.

I actually do not remember the last time I cried!  That for me is a big step! 

Another big step is I’m blogging.  It has become apparent to me that writing is great therapy for myself.  It feels good to write.  It gets out feelings that have been pent up and hid inside of me.  I feel better after I write.  Total (or almost!) relief.

I’m feeling good.  I’ve started the process of blogging about my trip to Arizona, so stay tuned for more posts to come! 

I think I’m back….I think the old Cori is finally feeling normal again!   Well except for this one super hard class I’m taking this quarter….but the end is in sight, c’mon June 10th and Graduation!

2 Responses to A New Norm
  1. Ann C.
    April 25, 2012 | 10:58 AM

    I’m so sorry Cori… I’m praying for Kelly and all of you. HUGS

  2. Regina M.
    April 25, 2012 | 10:59 AM

    you graduate on my birthday. Thanks for the update. I think about you often.