Most vivid childhood memory

I know I said I wouldn’t be posting my second part of the Back To School/Back To Blogging homework until Tuesday, but well I lied!  So here I am doing my homework early, so unlike me!

From the Idea Bank Prompt #353

There is one memory in my life that has always stuck out as my most vivid memory.  The odd thing is, it’s a memory from when I was just barely three years old.  However, this memory (at that time) was so traumatic, it has actually caused me years of anxiety and stress.  I’ll preface by saying, looking back now, it’s silly, I wasn’t in any harm at all, but when you’re only three-years-old it sure felt like it! 

Okay…now back in time we go to early morning of September 13, 1988….

I woke up, just as I did every morning.  Climbed out of bed and wandered into my parents room.  Upon entering the room, I realized that my parents weren’t in there – no big deal, they must be downstairs already.  I remember wandering downstairs and into the kitchen.  To my shock, nobody was there.  I remember walking out the garage and the car was gone.  The most vivid part of the memory I have is walking back towards the stairs, and climbing the first step thinking “they’ve left me, they don’t want me anymore”.  I was scared out of my mind.

I wandered back up the stairs and was surprised to be met at the top by some family friends.  Turns out, my mom had gone into labor the night before, and delivered my little sister Kelly after I’d gone to bed.  My parents didn’t want to wake me, so they had their friends come stay at the house.  Instead of staying in my parents room, they stayed in our guest room – thus me not noticing them until that moment.  I survived and lived to tell the story, and was “lucky” to get to meet Baby Kelly a few hours later! 

Obviously 22 years have now gone by, but I’m pretty sure that initial “abandonment” feeling has left a strong impression on me.  My whole life, while I know with out a doubt my parents love me and would never everabandon me, I’ve still suffered from extreme anxiety and stress.  I’ve learned to work through it and am getting to the point of being able to say I’m “over it”.  But the memory is still there.  The pain is still there.  I still think about those moments a lot.  The memory still haunts me from time to time.  Not to mention my mom, who for years felt absolutely awful about the pain it caused me.  I wouldn’t trade my parents for anything…but I’d definitely be willing to trade that memory for another one!

Cori & Baby Kelly

  Kludgy MomPart 2 of my homework for Week 2 of the Back To School, Back To Blogging Class over at Kludgy Mom!

 

20 Responses to Most vivid childhood memory
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    September 20, 2010 | 8:17 PM

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  2. Kat
    September 20, 2010 | 8:50 PM

    Things can seem a lot worse when you are younger. That picture is very sweet!

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    September 20, 2010 | 9:08 PM

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  4. Kristin
    September 20, 2010 | 9:45 PM

    Yowza! That’s quite traumatic!

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  9. Mrs.Mayhem
    September 21, 2010 | 6:12 AM

    The image of you wandering around the house, looking for your parents is heartbreaking!

    It is amazing how simple events can impact kids.

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  14. MamaOnDaGo
    September 21, 2010 | 10:13 AM

    What a horrible memory. At least you received a new sibling from it. That memory and bond is priceless.
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  15. Pop
    September 21, 2010 | 10:22 AM

    Woah! 3 years old?! D1 is 2.5 now, so I guess I better be real careful.

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    September 21, 2010 | 10:34 AM

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  17. gigi
    September 21, 2010 | 6:05 PM

    I have some very vivid memories from age 3 too. This story made me really sad. Thinking about you walking around thinking they’d left you. I’m sorry that it had a lasting impact and not in a good way. :(

  18. ZippyChix
    September 24, 2010 | 4:06 PM

    It is so interesting the memories that we choose to hold on to in our lives. I always hope and pray that my children will remember all of the wonderful memories that I have attempted to create….but sometimes they will talk about the oddest things that happened long ago….I guess you never know what will stick. I certainly have some interesting things that I remember from my childhood. Thanks for sharing:)

  19. Jackie
    September 27, 2010 | 8:58 AM

    I can totally sympathize with you! I had a similar experience when I was under 5 (can’t remember the exact age) but I remember waking from a nap and couldn’t find my mom no matter how loud I yelled! I’m so old and that was so long ago I can’t remember much else!!