I’ve suffered from panic attacks, anxiety and OCD for as long as I remember. I vividly remember my first one at just three years old and they intensified during my move from the only home I knew to a new one. For years I have suffered both silently and extremely vocally. I have spent hours in ER’s and on one occasion nearly admitted for intensive anxiety support.
My mom has always been my rock, never leaving me alone in the face of an attack. She has spent endless hours laying with me on the bathroom floor helping me not throw-up so my anxiety medication could kick in. We’ve probably walked my neighborhood loop thousands of times at all hours of the days and nights. And taken me to therapist, counselor and psychiatrist trying to get to the bottom of my anxiety.
I know anxiety.
I know it extremely well.
I have tried every tip, trick and suggestion ever given to me. I’ve endured people telling me “just get over it” or “it’s just in your head”. I’ve spent days laying in bed physically ill and throwing up because of the anxiety I feel. Many people may not understand anxiety, but to me it’s real. Extremely real and extremely devastating.
The thing about anxiety and depression is it’s often a silent epidemic. It’s often easier to just keep your feelings locked inside instead of sharing them. So for years I thought it was just me, that I was alone having irrational thoughts of inadequacy. When a friend’s blog post seemed to go viral on my Facebook timeline I looked into it and was shocked too find that I wasn’t alone.
In December 2012, Kathryn Thompson posted a blog post, Drops of Awesome, where she shares an eye opening, life changing experience she had walking her son to the bus stop. Here’s an excerpt from that original blog post:
As we got half way to the bus, Magoo reached out and grabbed my hand in an uninhibited way that I knew wouldn’t happen many more times. He’s seven now but growing and how many 12-year-old boys do you see still swinging hands happily with their mommies?
I squeezed his hand, felt the rare Seattle sun on my face, and told him I loved him. I was nearly perfectly happy.
Just at that moment, the thought came into my mind, That’s awesome that you’re walking him to the bus stop and putting on this “mother of the year” act today. What about yesterday and the day before that? You hardly ever walk him to the bus. He’s probably holding your hand because he’s so desperate for the love and attention you haven’t been showing him.
My bubble had burst. I am a crap mom, I thought, as I looked down into his smiling face.
Then another thought came. Kathryn. What is wrong with you? You are being an awesome mom in this moment. Your child is happy. You are loving him and caring for him. He’s well fed and dressed. You’re walking to the bus stop in the early morning and you’re already wearing a bra for heck’s sake. Do not rob yourself of this moment’s joy because of what you failed to do yesterday or what you fear you might not do tomorrow.
This started me thinking of all the times I do something good while beating myself up for all the times I haven’t been perfect.
Since that moment Kathryn began noting all the little Drops of Awesome she achieved and found that the more she acknowledged and celebrated her Awesomeness she was becoming the person she wanted to become.
Her Drops of Awesome idea became an instant internet sensation and now has become a book to help each one of us reach our goals. The idea behind Drops of Awesome is allowing yourself to celebrate the small victories in your life and the more victories you celebrate, the more proud and strong you will become. We are our own worst enemy, if we can boost our own self-esteem imagine the momentum that will begin!
I had the honor of receiving a copy of the book prior to it’s release (just was released today!) and have been noting my Drops of Awesome for several weeks now and it’s fun to look back at my achievements! No matter how small they may seem an achievement is an achievement and deserves to be celebrated! This is going to sound extremely hokey but, this book has changed my life. It has changed the way I view myself, how I react (or don’t react) to different situations. I have shared the concept with other friends suffering anxiety and depression who also are starting their own Drops of Awesome trial and seeing change in themselves, because the more positive feed back you experience, the more likely you are to repeat and want to do more leading you towards reaching your goals.
I’m so in love with this book that I want to give away a copy to one of my readers. One reader will receive a physical copy of Drops of Awesome and three other lucky winners will win .PDF copies courtesy of the book’s publisher Familius!
The giveaway will run through Sunday, September 28th at 11:59pm PST.
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